What Being Sick Reminds Me About Myself
I don’t like being weak.
I don’t like letting people down and having to back out of things that I am supposed to do. I have a major guilt problem with these things.
I don’t know how to relax and don’t really until I’m forced to and even then it’s not very relaxing because of the discomfort of sickness. It turns into a viscous cycle.
But I do have to say I have improved. I’m learning to speak up more and say no to things I just can’t do. When in the past I would have done it anyway and just made myself more miserable. I wonder if the guilt that comes along with backing out of something ever goes away? Will I learn to be easier on myself about that? And will I learn how to relax on a regular basis so I don’t get caught in a vicious cycle of exhaustion? So I guess one more thing I’m reminded of is that I’m still a work in progress. 🙂